After 30, and then...?

30 is an interesting number.
Almost everyone I know feel so nervous about it.
Before 30, maybe from 26 on, they start to think about “oh, 30 is coming, what should I do?” with scare.
The importance of 30 is not because it’s an integer.
I never feel nervous when I was 20, neither did my friends.
The mood of 20 is happy, kind like a release that I am a real person from then on.
30 is totally different.
You could do nothing in 20, cause you just start to live a real person live.
However, when 30 comes, it means you’ve lived a real person live for 10 years,
It’s long enough to achieve many goals.
So, if you still do nothing in 30, there might be something wrong with you.
It’s this kind of point make 30 a big thing for everyone.

Do I Love You?

I don't know the answer.
I want to stop missing you, but I can't.
My heart doesn't listen to my mind.
It's painful.
My mind said you're definitely a big asshole.
However, my heart always miss all of your kindness.
I want to talk to you everyday.
It's a torture for me to see you appear on msn everyday and have no conversation.
I don't know how do you define our relationship?
It's you to come to me first.
If you don't want to date with me or have formal relationship with me, why don't you just let me go?
I can't catch your logic.
I always feel insecure.
You always acted like you just take me as an entertainment.
I hate this.
I love self-esteem more, I guess.

Reunion

In Valnentine's Day, I had afernoon tea with one friend who hadn't meet for more than ten years.
She looks thiner and more beautiful than before.
It's very interesting to see her speaking, a little familiar and a little strange.
She is still the same person, acts and speak in the same way, but express in a more mature style.
It's very lucky that we talked happily without any awkward pause.
She reminded me of many stories I've forgotten.
I always believe I could remember everything I've experienced.
Obviously, my memory is not as good as I suppose.
From conversation, I found unexpectedly that I am exactly the same person at least from senior high school.
I love fine food, I am late pretty often, and I am optimistic in others' views.
She is like an autobiography of myself.
It's very lucky and honor to be kept in other's memory so vividly.
It's so nice to have an old friend back！

Illness

This night, I went to visit one of my colleague in hospital.
She is younger than me, but already gets married and has a daughter who is one year old.
When her daughter was born, she fed her breast milk.
However, there were some problems, the process was not smooth.
There were too many milk in her breast and couldn't be pull out totally.
The breast hurt very much, so she decided to stop breast milk feeding soon.
Maybe she didn't stop it in proper way, there were new problems coming to her breast recently.
She found some hard stuff first, and the stuff hurt more and more gradually.
After severl exhausting examine, the doctor told her it's breast inflammation, she must got an operation to solve it.
She felt terrified by the operation very much.
She needs her husband and family to accompany her.
However, her husband is always very busy and the family in her husband side don't think the operation is a big event and treat her coldly.
Her daughter is sick in the same time and stay in another hospital.
After operation, she waked up alone and collapsed immediately.
She called us with crying.
All of us feel very sorry about the situation.
What we could do is to visit her as frequently as we can.
Poor little mummy.
Wish you recover soon!

Extravagance

It's a little boring to always have straight hair.
I've dreamed about romantic wavy hair for a long time.
After searching for a suitable hair salon for a while, I found a perfect one.
I encountered with it on the way looking for lunch.
It's near my office, in a lane with a small park beisde it.
I love the atmosphere of relax and quiet.
Besides, that salon uses AVEDA in the whole process, this is a great bonus point!
I hate the smell of chemical stuff in salon, it makes me very uncomfortable, nervous and headache.
And I also worry about the chemical substance would damage my hair and health.
AVEDA is famous for its high quality, its product comes from natural materials, not chemical compound. I love it.
So, even knowing the cost would be pretty high, I still chose it in this depression period.
The result corresponds to my expectation.
The whole process is very comfortable.
It includes not only perming and cutting, but also conditioning and SPA, such a various service.
It's the frist time I don't have headache after perming.
Everything sounds good, except for the hair style.

At frist, after the designer finished, I felt strange for the new style.
It looks not match to my face and my glasses.
And then, in the restroom of bookstore, I felt like an old lady from the image on the mirror.
After returning home, I check this style again.
At that time, I finally felt the style is good.
The degree of curing is perfect, like the copy of model.
I went to bed with satisfaction.
However, this morning, when I waked up and look in the mirror again, I found the hair is less curing now!
It's only more fluffy than before and with a little cury in the end of hair.
oh~~no........
I spent NT$4500, I want big change, not the slight difference.
However, big difference might equal to big ugly.
alas,.......I don't know which one to expect, just wondering where the NT$4500 goes.....

Spoiled Wife

My sister has a perfect husband.
He always treats her like a princess.
He told my sister that he would do everything for her, he would devote all his earnings for her.
Even when he would strave someday, she could still take his money to buy everything she wants.
Her husband really did everything he promised.
My sister wanted a house, he bought a house for her, even they didn't have enough money.
My sister wanted to get married, they got married and hold a big wedding even they didn't have enough money.
When they complained about my father not lending money for their expense and refuse to provide living expense for my retired father and sick mother, they still went on to buy some luxurious stuff only becacuse my sister wanted them.
Today, it's her birthday.
She called me this morning and asked me to go home immediately to celebrate birthday for her.
It means I have to send her a big gift and treat her a big feast.
It's so unbelievable cause I am in Taipei and she is in Taichung.
It takes more than two hours for me to get there.
She even ask me to take the expensive High Speed Rail to cut time.
I refused directly.
And she continued to consider about come to Taipei to have my treat and big gift, I said feast is ok but gift is too much.
She felt unsatisfied and said I am so negligent of her birthday.
I were annoyed.
Whenever my birthday comes, my family celebrate for me only when I'm home, and there is only a cake.
I feel it's ok and never ask more.
However, how could my sister dare demand so much?
It's so greedy！
I'm not rich and had no job for three months in this year for the exam.
Most of my saving is stuck in funds.
I almost have no money now.
She knows all about this and still wants so much from me.
What's wrong with her?

And then, she is pregnant now.
Cause they have no money, she always reminds me to prepare gift for her baby.
Oh,....it's your baby, not mine.
Send her gift is ok, but don't expect me to feed her...

Such a spoiled wife, and such a burden couple....

Be a better guy.

Michelle told me the rest two of entering the final exam.
One is a contracted staff in GIO, another is a beauty graduated from NTU law college and Missouri School of Journalism.
WOW！It sounds so strong for their ability.
I feel released a little.
It's not because I am so weak to flunk, it's because they're too great.
However, I want to be that great, too.
I also want to work aborad and meet various people from all around the world.
It's obvious that I have long way to go.
I have to enhance my ability much more to catch up with those guys.
HOPE I CAN！