It's lucky enough to have job now.

My new job is a hard-working job.
There are too many job and too few people.
In my company, I am the only person in charge of editing, interviewing, reporting, copywriting and proposal.
Everything needed to write belongs to me.
It's a huge labor.
I often work overtime.
All my life is under the shadow of job, I even dream about job when falling asleep.
It sounds bad to have this kind of job.

In the past, when my family and friend heard about this, they would felt unfair for my and suggested me to find another better job.
However, in this wave of depression, their reaction change.
Almost everyone feel the strong power of cold economy, some of them never get any new order since June, some of their clients accumulate huge loss and might close down in any time.
Most of my friends are afraid about lay-off.
One of my soho friend don't dare to refuse any case even though he have too many now, cause he worries there might be no case in the future.

It's such a tough time, it's lucky enough to have job now.
I should not complain, I should cherish this heavy job.

What I Want

I always try to figure out this question--What do I want?

I have many dreams, such as being a novelist, making much money, traveling around the world, finding a good guy, having a house with garden, accompaning with my family more, etc.

All these dreams take time to achieve, so I have to find out the priority.
However, which one should be the priority?

I want to work abroad, cause I could make money and travel around the world in the same time.
But it's not easy to find such job for a person without any experience about foreign countries.

Maybe working holiday is a good idea, but I had car accident before and still feel not comfortable in certain part of my body. I wonder if I have enough energy to to do the labor job.

The permission of working holiday should be applied for before thirty and one could only get it one time in the whole life.
I am 29 now, don't have much time to consider it.
Maybe give up this chance and find another way to go abroad.

There are so many bitch men in the world!

Today, I heard an astonishing news--one of my friends found her husband having extramarital relations!

I almost can't believe it!
They were together with each other for more than ten years and just got married in less than two years ago.
Whenever I met them, they always look happy, and I always feel that guy really treat my friend very well.
However, after only less than two years, the guy has affairs with his former colleague.
Even being exposed by my friend, the guy goes on taking his new love to the motel.
He said sorry to my friend, and divorce is ok for him.
So cold the guy is and so miserable my friend is.
She still wants to save her marriage.

I couldn't help to sigh for the sad story.
I've heard many stories like this, most of them happened to my friends actually.
Where are the good guys?
Why the yield rate of men is so low?
Why does there are so many irresponsible guys?
Marriage is an important event for women.
It's very hard for a divorced woman to get into another marriage in chinese society.
How could the guy mentioned divorce so casually?
If you decide to get marriage, you must take the responsibility to keep it.
If you couldn't, don't marry anyone. Or you would become a killer to another's heart.

alas, God bless my friend.

So Subjective!

I've discuss with my friend about the exam and feel released a little now, cause we find the standard of scoring is very subjective.

My friend graduated from FLLD in NTU, and studied in a famous graduate school in UK. She've ever taken the job of translator, too.
So, she has excellent English ability, and always get high score in the English written exam.
However, her score in the oral exam is low, even as low as mine.
One of her friend also attended this exam and get high score in this.
According to her description, she almost didn't know the answer about
every question, she just kept saying, "sorry, I'm not sure" or "I have no idea about it'. However, in the end, when she got to leave, she asked to
shake hands with every judges. This action made all judges laughed and said, "it's so diplomatic!" And then, she got the score of89!

My friend and I answered every question seriously, (at lease more serious than thay quy) even so serious to had quarrel with judges.
The scores we got are lower than that guy by almost 20.

There are more examples prove that this exam is very subjective, but I am lazy to write all them down.
I believe I won't attend any exam like this.
It' really wasting time.
The key to win is to cater for the judges's preference, not to express what you've learned.

New Start

Alother I'm a Taiwanese, I decide to write all articles in English in this blog.

It's really a great frustration for me to flunk the international journalism exam, while my friend pass it.
Such a big contrast.
Am I really so bad in all of those subject?
In fact, I even get a pretty low score in Chinese.
Why?? What's wrong??
Maybe it's because I didn't study hard enough......alother I felt I've try my best for it.

Anyway, I have to stop feel sorry for myself.
I eager to wipe the shameful feeling away.
I decide to restart from English.
I studied in the department of foreign language and literature.
but never achieve good ability in it.
It's time for me to take learning English seriously.

Hope I could write one English article everyday from now on.
Hope this could made me like a real graduate from FLLD.
And no more shameful scores.........